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wow i cant believe that i havent blogged for the past one and a half week. God has been good. HE sustained me through the camp preparations and the worship retreat last week. okay here are some updates..

worship retreat.

by far, the best retreat i have been to. i learnt so much about the essence of worship,had lots of bonding time with people and really enjoyed everything. the games we had were rather lame but they really bonded us closer.

i was already falling sick by Sunday. Camp Comm stayed overnight on Sunday to do the last minute preparation. It was tiring and i wasnt sure if i could even last through camp. 5 days passed by really fast and everything seems to be in a blur right now. i cant believe camp has ended. :D

Gosh, i have learnt so much through this camp that all i want to do right now is to stop , think and to praise God. i couldnt have asked for a better camp comm, i coulnt have asked for a better speaker & mentors and i couldnt have asked for the people who came to the camp than these. God has been faithful and God has indeed been good. To see people being touched by God's presence, their heart of surrendering their problems and their worries away and being used by God in such mighty ways.

if we do stop and think, we will realised that God has always been there.

God has been good. i am really lost for words because God has shown me how real He is through the working of their lives and mine. Tears of joy came on tuesday when i saw the youths' yearning for revial in their lives. There were moments when i felt like giving out, when tears of frustration came down but i realised that everything really worked out according to what we prayed for.

i dont think i have shared this before. 6 months ago, i was really praying on whether to take up the role of camp commandant. i know myself well, i am not a born leader and i prefer to play a more supportive role. (:

God spoke to me through Hebrews 11. I have read that passage a million times before but that night, God opened my eyes to what He wanted to say to me.

"All these people were still living by fiath when they died. They did not receive. the things promisedl they only saw them and welcome them from a distance...Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God for he has prepared a city for them"
-Heb 11: 13-16

The city was already prepared and i should go in faith. (: Yesterday night, God worked through me again by allowing Dan to pray for me. It was simply amazing that although i have never shared with him before; God allowed Him to pray for the things that i was really struggling through handling the camp. It was truly a breakthrough moment.

i promised myself that i wont cry. But i am only human and i am glad i cried only when i had to. God really sustained me and gave me strength even when it got tiring. It was really very fufilling to see lives changing. I cant help feeling at peace right now.

Dan made his decision today. tears couldnt stop flowing because i only knew him for 2 years and He has been such a great friend and dgl partner with me. But i know it is for the best and i know that He would be happier there. (:

Most importantly, i thank God that i have been used when i was nothing; when i didnt know what to do. To see people changing and yearning for God , to see the camp comm being open and supporting each other, for mentors who were there to lead the way and to everyone that took the step of faith to come for this camp..

Truly, Thy Kingdom Come, Let Your Will be Done.

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. To him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen!
- Ephesians 3:20